Mood:  lazy

It's been weeks now since Bardfest and though I placed admist the Aspis officer pack, I've been feeling rather... unmotivated. The town has always been pretty quiet and unmoving. Unlike other places though, your presense is always noted.

My handmaidens are always eager to see to my convenience and happiness, which lessens the ennui quite often. It's far easier to remain interested in hunting as well, and is far more profitable on any given day. Sometimes though, I think they want to get me drunk with all the wine they bring to me. I hardly mind, as my throat does become parched with all the singing that has been required of me.

Admittedly I am starting to become impatient with the Highlord's absence. The Tower is loosing opportunity by holding out on my testing. I am eager to take on q'halae and promote some activities of my own, but currently there is little that I can do. I have been mulling over a few ideas, but I will need to take them up with the Emissary for approval first.

It is highly discouraging to see a total of four q'halae and only see one not completely disappear. More disappointing, is that she is a family of -one- and tends to lash out at other Dhe'nar. I understand ego, and I further understand aloofness. I have plenty for several dhe'nar. However, she tends to put her own misri on a pedestal comparitively, more so than would be expected. The Blade and I cannot help but conclude the girl wishes to be the Emissary's consort, rather than have any true ambition. Time will tell, I expect. She has potential, though I hope at some point the Emissary will test her ability to forfeit selfish desires as well as learn trust and unity among the Family.